Realization

My soul screams for redemption,
my heart cries out for you.
Longing for sweet salvation,
but that will not come true.

My heart will need some mending,
my mind needs peace of course.
And I? I’ll stop pretending,
if needed I’ll use force.

I’ve got to stop and realize
that you are gone for good.
I shouldn’t go on living lies,
not even if I could.

Life will go on without you,
the earth won’t stop to spin.
Although it’s easy to do,
I can’t give up, give in.

Give in to the longing inside me,
give in to the need to deny.
It will take some time but I’ll see
that there’s more than the option to die.

 © Clautje West 2000