Acknowledging defeat

I’m standing before the window
observing blackness and the night
I’m feeling that thrusting sorrow
and that overwhelming fright.

As tiredness invades my soul
and blackness takes over my heart
surviving, that was once my goal
now I’m longing to depart.

I’m fighting against the phantom
the phantom still fed by my past
always struggling for my freedom
I knew I would never last.

The darkness is so much stronger
it’s so seductive in it’s call
I will not fight it much longer
I will close my eyes and fall.